Boutique Karma

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Tweaking Tuesday – Trekking April 27, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — boutiquekarma @ 3:30 am

I love food, I may as well accept it. This love hate relationship is dangerous and I don’t think I have any real control over it. I just can’t keep food within the house that could contribute to my downfall. This is why the homemade cookies I made on Sunday went into the garborator on Monday morning before my husband left the house.

This is why on Friday when I got really anxious and stressed out about our dinner party I sat with a handful of cookies and scarfed them. There is no control. My anxiousness towards the food just makes it worse.

Here is my thought pattern and discussion with a friend about my anxiety & eating (not word for word – I don’t have that kind of memory)

me: “sometimes I think if I took anti anxiety medication it would help with my eating. Less anxiety = less bingeing)”

friend: “well, what if it only made you not care that you ate it?”
me (jokingly): “true, maybe I should just smoke pot to relax”

friend: “nope – munchies”

me: “no, hope”

Don’t get too judgmental about my pot/marijuana line, it’s not something I would ever consider doing with my two kids in the house. Besides, it makes me feel all paranoid and icky, I personally hate the feeling.

Now comes my next thought – I have to do crazy exercise to burn the calories from my food intake. Maybe if I burn myself out I will be discouraged from eat OR too tired to walk to the kitchen.

This weeks tweak will be to get dressed and out the door by 9am for a walk each morning with the kiddies (weather permitting)


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